Day 16 - barely eaten till late

I felt rather ill today. I have finally eaten at 7pm. I had some whole grain rice, broccoli, asparagus and broad beans with two pieces of whole grain toast. I felt sick all day with catarrh and not being able to go to the toilet which isn't good. I am feeling knackered :( I went to bed last at 9pm I felt so poorly.

Day 15 - I feel very ill today

I have still exercised today, I burnt off the twirl I ate to cheer me up. I haven't eaten a full day's full. I ate half a chocolate thin, pearly barley innocent with mixed grain crackers and for tea I had 2 pieces of toast. I feel pretty full unfortunately. I think that's because I feel I'll- my throat and mouth feel awful. Bad times eh!! Watching secret eaters again - it's really motivating me to change. I need to lose at least a stone so I'm no longer overweight. I shouldn't be overweight, I'm 32 and should still have a decent body. Right now I don't, I will though. I still feel guilty for being overweight for my friends wedding! Never again!! This ends now.

Day 14- feeling pretty pants - stupid cheese.

Today I ate a brunch bar for breakfast. 2 dark chocolate rice cakes as a snack then edamame, broccoli and peas salad with a small amount of feta. For a snack this afternoon I ate some apple pieces. For tea I ate asparagus, broccoli, green beans and butternut squash with two pieces of whole grain toast. I did 35 minutes on the exercise bike whilst torturing myself watching secret eaters. This eating 20 chews and putting knife and fork down works wonders. I know I've always over estimated portions but I'm so full at the moment. My pants feel looser too. Don't want to weigh myself though as I am building muscle and I think it would devastate me. I measured though and I'm 38-34-43 which is pretty bad if I'm honest but in a few more weeks I'm hoping my waist and bum will be better measurements at least :)

Day 13 - Sunday feeling - far too warm.

Today I have been for a 45 minute walk and done 20 minutes on the exercise bike. I ate 2 potato cakes and beans for breakfast. 2 pieces of whole grain toast with some beet root and a yoghurt for lunch. We then went to frankie and benny's where I ate a goats cheese and caramelised onion wrap with chips. Two pieces of garlic bread and then some peanut butter sundae. Let's say it was a write off. Back to normal tomorrow.

Day 12 - weekend time

Today I have eaten 2 potato cakes, beans and a fried egg. A peanut brunch bar and 30g nuts and seeds. Then I made myself a cheese less pizza with basil, herbs and garlic. My legs are killing from the fire evacuation yesterday so I only did 10 mins on the bike today. I could have not done it but at least I persevered!

Day 11 - starting to use food as intended

Had chocolate orange thins, veggie sushi, apple and grapes. Then had tapas for tea which included houmous with pitta, mozzarella and tomato, Spanish potato tortilla, mini pizza, garlic mushrooms and garlic bread. We had a fire alarm at work so walked down 17 flights of stairs and then did 15 mins of the bike tonight. I shouldn't feel guilty about enjoying food- it was small and bite sized. Managed to continue eating slowly!! Good times.

Day 10 - to weigh or measure?

Both me and the boy now feel ill but I refuse to stop being a better eater. Today I had a square bar, a gingerbread man as felt sick, crackers and innocent Mexican chipotle chilli. Had some nuts and seeds, stirfry from last night with tofu, cherry tomatoes and some houmous. I feel sick now though. I also weighed myself today , scales said I was 12 st 11 3/4 which was exceedingly depressing. Thought I was doing well :( bad times 

Day 9 - oh I feel like death

Nine days I have been exercising on that bike and I feel like I am increasing in size not reducing my weight or size. I have felt sick today when I've eaten which has been fun. Today I ate a black cherry fruit corner and a squares bar. For dinner I had an innoncent lentil dhanbar with mixed grain crackers. I had some nuts and seeds. For tea I had a stir fry with broccoli, asparagus and beans with tofu. I had a pitta pocket with a small about hokum pus. I tried to eat golden vegetable rice but barely touched it. I'm not feeling great. This makes me feel bad. So tired. The Paul McKenna stuff is working but I'm not sure I'm enjoying food too much. Definitely tasting it but not overly enjoying. Go figure.

Day 8 - habit forming

I've exercised for 30 minutes and still need to do more - I am being lazy :( today I ate beans and potato cakes, square bar, pearl barley innocent with crackers and nuts and seeds. Hokum outs with a sandwich thin. I don't think I'm eating enough but I've definitely noticed I'm not emotionally eating. I feel hungry and I am really tasting my food. I am definitely trying to change my thought process about food. I think I've done well and it's taking me a lot longer to eat now than I did before. Portion control is the next task I guess. It's a long road but I'll get there x

Day 7 - even when I feel ill I exercised!!

I started today well, squares bar - some nuts and seeds, mixed veg, poppy seed crackers, cherry fruit corner, 2 potato cakes, pasta and homemade tomato sauce and finally a rocket lolly! I exercised for 30 minutes. I have felt very sick since yesterday! Bad times in seed :( 

Day 6 - this is becoming a habit...

Today has been very strange, for the first time in a long time I made food and didn't eat it. I am shocked. I had a square bar, 2 rice cakes, peppers, carrots and mooni with a terayaki sauce pot, 2 potato cakes and some cauliflower, broccoli and cabbage with asparagus. Not a lot, slightly strange but I felt sick and I was full. The Paul McKenna DVD was working and I definitely feel sort of different. I have been a grumpy monkey today unfortunately. I have done 20 minutes exercise (I know not enough but at least it's something). I am punishing my self watching the Hairy Biker's Dairy programme. Not a diet programme but also with a lactose intolerance I ignore, probably not a great idea. But I love it and them. Got two new recipe books - is saddening all veggie cookbooks are inherently the same - makes me sad inside :(

Day 5 - oh no

Saturday is the devil. I ate a squares bar, soup with crackers and a vegetable burrito with some tortilla chips. Oh and I hate 30g of nuts!  Here's a picture 

Day 4 - I feel a little motivated

So I am currently cycling at 11pm at night. I think it may be actually getting into this routine a little. I am barely recycling if I'm honest. My bum really hurts. Today I ate a banana, 2 apple and cinnamon cookies. 2 pieces of slimming world quiche with cherry tomatoes. Tea was pasta with tomato sauce with asparagus, broccoli and sweet corn. I am pretty tired!! I don't think I'll be exercising tomorrow as I'm working hence the late night work. Made a mistake of weighing myself, I must be gaining muscle have put on 3lbs. Bad times :(

Day 3

So I was watching TV today whilst cycling today. Did an entire hour but have definitely bruised my bum!!! So food for today - Kellogg's square, two pieces of quiche, mushrooms and cherry tomatoes for lunch. Snack of yoghurt crunch by kp (30g)  healthy minestrone soup, new potatoes, carrot, pack of poppy seed biscuits and 2 dark chocolate rice cakes. So I am very tired and a little hungry. I definitely eat too fast and I need to combat that. My resolve is strong though, I will lose a few pounds and get fitter! I will get over the bruised bum :(

Day 2

So I'm sat here, sweating a bit too much because I'm obviously overweight and have done 45 minutes on the bike. Today I have eaten Kellogg square bar, 2 pieces of quiche with potato, asparagus and spinach. Then tomato and basil soup with poppy seed biscuits with steamed vegetables! Then i had a pack of snack a jacks and a rocket lolly. So healthy is good, except I am still so very hungry. I'm watching my lovely James do exercise on the bike because after 4 years of dating, we got comfortable. So we are both trying to give up sugar and exercise. I also have a Paul McKenna book about emotional eating. We shall see what happens :) my legs are really aching though. More exercise tomorrow.....

Day 1 - New exercise regime

So today was the first day of my new health regime - yes I wouldn't hold your breath but fingers crossed!! So my legs feel like jelly after I did 53 minutes on the exercise bike, I feel like this was a mistake, I don't want to think about my legs in the morning. I was a sweat monster - totally ridiculous!!! So I had some nuts and seeds, veggie sushi, beet root crisps, butternut squash, asparagus and broccoli with new potatoes. Then a quiche with mushrooms and slow roasted tomatoes. So, healthy food and exercise. Unfortunately I weigh 12st 10 pounds at 5ft 7 inch I am overweight. I am 32 and if I don't sort it now I'll always be bigger. What has sparked this new weight loss battle? My best friend's wedding when all the pictures were being taken I felt like the fat friend. I know I'm not massive-don't get me wrong I'm not saying I'm horrific but it's a slippery slope. I love food but I am unhealthy and I know that I'm not doing myself any favours. I need to lose at least a stone to get myself in the high end of my bmi. So I need to do this for my self esteem and for my relationships. I feel fat and ugly so I become a hermit and sweat about the small stuff. Oh to be a size 12 again....I'm a high end size 16 unfortunately :( happy, healthy and trying to be the best me I can be. Picture below is day 1 - not a face I like looking back - hopefully it'll be better if I lose some size. I even made dinner for tomorrow, vegetable frittata with potato and peas!! Roll on healthy dinners.....