Day 16 - barely eaten till late

I felt rather ill today. I have finally eaten at 7pm. I had some whole grain rice, broccoli, asparagus and broad beans with two pieces of whole grain toast. I felt sick all day with catarrh and not being able to go to the toilet which isn't good. I am feeling knackered :( I went to bed last at 9pm I felt so poorly.

Day 15 - I feel very ill today

I have still exercised today, I burnt off the twirl I ate to cheer me up. I haven't eaten a full day's full. I ate half a chocolate thin, pearly barley innocent with mixed grain crackers and for tea I had 2 pieces of toast. I feel pretty full unfortunately. I think that's because I feel I'll- my throat and mouth feel awful. Bad times eh!! Watching secret eaters again - it's really motivating me to change. I need to lose at least a stone so I'm no longer overweight. I shouldn't be overweight, I'm 32 and should still have a decent body. Right now I don't, I will though. I still feel guilty for being overweight for my friends wedding! Never again!! This ends now.

Day 13 - Sunday feeling - far too warm.

Today I have been for a 45 minute walk and done 20 minutes on the exercise bike. I ate 2 potato cakes and beans for breakfast. 2 pieces of whole grain toast with some beet root and a yoghurt for lunch. We then went to frankie and benny's where I ate a goats cheese and caramelised onion wrap with chips. Two pieces of garlic bread and then some peanut butter sundae. Let's say it was a write off. Back to normal tomorrow.

Day 12 - weekend time

Today I have eaten 2 potato cakes, beans and a fried egg. A peanut brunch bar and 30g nuts and seeds. Then I made myself a cheese less pizza with basil, herbs and garlic. My legs are killing from the fire evacuation yesterday so I only did 10 mins on the bike today. I could have not done it but at least I persevered!

Day 11 - starting to use food as intended

Had chocolate orange thins, veggie sushi, apple and grapes. Then had tapas for tea which included houmous with pitta, mozzarella and tomato, Spanish potato tortilla, mini pizza, garlic mushrooms and garlic bread. We had a fire alarm at work so walked down 17 flights of stairs and then did 15 mins of the bike tonight. I shouldn't feel guilty about enjoying food- it was small and bite sized. Managed to continue eating slowly!! Good times.

Day 10 - to weigh or measure?

Both me and the boy now feel ill but I refuse to stop being a better eater. Today I had a square bar, a gingerbread man as felt sick, crackers and innocent Mexican chipotle chilli. Had some nuts and seeds, stirfry from last night with tofu, cherry tomatoes and some houmous. I feel sick now though. I also weighed myself today , scales said I was 12 st 11 3/4 which was exceedingly depressing. Thought I was doing well :( bad times 

Day 9 - oh I feel like death

Nine days I have been exercising on that bike and I feel like I am increasing in size not reducing my weight or size. I have felt sick today when I've eaten which has been fun. Today I ate a black cherry fruit corner and a squares bar. For dinner I had an innoncent lentil dhanbar with mixed grain crackers. I had some nuts and seeds. For tea I had a stir fry with broccoli, asparagus and beans with tofu. I had a pitta pocket with a small about hokum pus. I tried to eat golden vegetable rice but barely touched it. I'm not feeling great. This makes me feel bad. So tired. The Paul McKenna stuff is working but I'm not sure I'm enjoying food too much. Definitely tasting it but not overly enjoying. Go figure.

Day 8 - habit forming

I've exercised for 30 minutes and still need to do more - I am being lazy :( today I ate beans and potato cakes, square bar, pearl barley innocent with crackers and nuts and seeds. Hokum outs with a sandwich thin. I don't think I'm eating enough but I've definitely noticed I'm not emotionally eating. I feel hungry and I am really tasting my food. I am definitely trying to change my thought process about food. I think I've done well and it's taking me a lot longer to eat now than I did before. Portion control is the next task I guess. It's a long road but I'll get there x

Day 7 - even when I feel ill I exercised!!

I started today well, squares bar - some nuts and seeds, mixed veg, poppy seed crackers, cherry fruit corner, 2 potato cakes, pasta and homemade tomato sauce and finally a rocket lolly! I exercised for 30 minutes. I have felt very sick since yesterday! Bad times in seed :( 

Day 6 - this is becoming a habit...

Today has been very strange, for the first time in a long time I made food and didn't eat it. I am shocked. I had a square bar, 2 rice cakes, peppers, carrots and mooni with a terayaki sauce pot, 2 potato cakes and some cauliflower, broccoli and cabbage with asparagus. Not a lot, slightly strange but I felt sick and I was full. The Paul McKenna DVD was working and I definitely feel sort of different. I have been a grumpy monkey today unfortunately. I have done 20 minutes exercise (I know not enough but at least it's something). I am punishing my self watching the Hairy Biker's Dairy programme. Not a diet programme but also with a lactose intolerance I ignore, probably not a great idea. But I love it and them. Got two new recipe books - is saddening all veggie cookbooks are inherently the same - makes me sad inside :(

Day 5 - oh no

Saturday is the devil. I ate a squares bar, soup with crackers and a vegetable burrito with some tortilla chips. Oh and I hate 30g of nuts!  Here's a picture 

Day 3

So I was watching TV today whilst cycling today. Did an entire hour but have definitely bruised my bum!!! So food for today - Kellogg's square, two pieces of quiche, mushrooms and cherry tomatoes for lunch. Snack of yoghurt crunch by kp (30g)  healthy minestrone soup, new potatoes, carrot, pack of poppy seed biscuits and 2 dark chocolate rice cakes. So I am very tired and a little hungry. I definitely eat too fast and I need to combat that. My resolve is strong though, I will lose a few pounds and get fitter! I will get over the bruised bum :(

Day 2

So I'm sat here, sweating a bit too much because I'm obviously overweight and have done 45 minutes on the bike. Today I have eaten Kellogg square bar, 2 pieces of quiche with potato, asparagus and spinach. Then tomato and basil soup with poppy seed biscuits with steamed vegetables! Then i had a pack of snack a jacks and a rocket lolly. So healthy is good, except I am still so very hungry. I'm watching my lovely James do exercise on the bike because after 4 years of dating, we got comfortable. So we are both trying to give up sugar and exercise. I also have a Paul McKenna book about emotional eating. We shall see what happens :) my legs are really aching though. More exercise tomorrow.....

Day 21

Weighed myself this morning and weighed a fab 11st 13lbs but haven't lost now in two weeks. My body hates me and I have been naughty. I ate porridge this morning, a cereal bar, a small banana cupcake (I made a loaf it needed trying) then a salad with half slimming world quiche and some olives. Then I ate strawberries and the other half when I got home. I only want to have a healthy bmi and be a bit happier with my size. I'm too hot and exhausted to exercise. When is it god damn going to rain? Please rain I need to get fit for my holidays in september. I'm extending my 11st 9lbs to mid August now. Never going to see 10stone again I feel. Oh well, I prefer cake to being thin.!!!

Days 18, 19 and 20.

So Monday I started to be good again and it failed. I ate cereal biscuits, cherries and then macaroni cheese with sweet potato. Tues I ate breakfast biscuits, strawberries and mozzarella salad with beetroot and a wrap for tea. Wednesday I ate breakfast biscuits, strawberries and feta salad with a sweet potato and two lollies. No wonder I weighed 12st 1lb on tues. epic food fail!!!

Day 14-bad day equals food

Porridge for breakfast, strawberries, apple jelly and a mini roll (weight watchers). Couldn't weigh myself this morning as started work at 6am!!! So tired. Want to eat more already. Then I had pasta with tomato sauce. Cheese 25g as well. Still thinking about food-would really like to eat more. Hungry hungry hungry today. Just seen Michelle, love seeing her. 

Day 13 - oops

So my appetite is reducing. I ate porridge, strawberries, yoghurt and some raisins. for tea i ate 25g cheese, ice lolly, 2/3 pizza and feta with olives. I have had an orange jelly as well. I need to eat but feel guilty as I don't feel like exercise as it's sooo hot!!! Never gonna lose weight at this rate. Boo. I'll be a fatty on holiday in September :(

Day 12 -I think I've hit a wall

Food today was nutrigrain biscuits, 2 ice lollies, strawberries, 1 flatbread, pasta with tomato sauce and 2 25g cheeses and some grapes. Oh my god I have hit a wall but it's not the one I thought, I've hit the insanity wall if eating that was a problem in any way!! I walked from Salford Uni to Arndale House this morning. It just too warm to do any exercise but I've only got another16 days to lose 4lbs and this is where my body decides to go on strike!!! I will persevere!! I'm still not mega hungry! Just wish the weight would come off my bum-it never does. I lose my top half and I end up like a bloody pear. Oh to look like Kelly Brook. Yeah right not in a million years!!!

Day 11- fat monkey

So I went a bit crazy today. Had beans on toast, 2 eggs for breakfast. 1 piece of halloumi, 2 pieces of flatbread, tzatiki, 1 lolly, stir fry with noodles. Couple of grapes. Actually written down that's not as much as I thought. Did some moon walk and twists at the park. Saw my grandma-she's 95 today. Helped my mum flood the bathroom trying to change the handle. Eventful day it was x

Day 10 - still dieting, food is not the enemy

So I have eaten today 2 yoghurts, 3 Jaffa cakes, half a pitta, few pieces of feta. Few potatoes with whole grain mustard, tomatoes, cucumbers and pepper with tzatiki. Portion of rapberry Tiramisu and some strawberries. Walked around for 2 hours. Am soooo knackered. I still don't feel very hungry but am trying to drink as much as possible. God it's so hot today - hopefully I'm sweating it out. Vitamin d has got to be good! Add to my day a volvic juiced, piece of halloumi and a fruit pastille Lolly. Feel a bit guilty but hey ho.