Day 16 - barely eaten till late

I felt rather ill today. I have finally eaten at 7pm. I had some whole grain rice, broccoli, asparagus and broad beans with two pieces of whole grain toast. I felt sick all day with catarrh and not being able to go to the toilet which isn't good. I am feeling knackered :( I went to bed last at 9pm I felt so poorly.

Day 15 - I feel very ill today

I have still exercised today, I burnt off the twirl I ate to cheer me up. I haven't eaten a full day's full. I ate half a chocolate thin, pearly barley innocent with mixed grain crackers and for tea I had 2 pieces of toast. I feel pretty full unfortunately. I think that's because I feel I'll- my throat and mouth feel awful. Bad times eh!! Watching secret eaters again - it's really motivating me to change. I need to lose at least a stone so I'm no longer overweight. I shouldn't be overweight, I'm 32 and should still have a decent body. Right now I don't, I will though. I still feel guilty for being overweight for my friends wedding! Never again!! This ends now.

Day 14- feeling pretty pants - stupid cheese.

Today I ate a brunch bar for breakfast. 2 dark chocolate rice cakes as a snack then edamame, broccoli and peas salad with a small amount of feta. For a snack this afternoon I ate some apple pieces. For tea I ate asparagus, broccoli, green beans and butternut squash with two pieces of whole grain toast. I did 35 minutes on the exercise bike whilst torturing myself watching secret eaters. This eating 20 chews and putting knife and fork down works wonders. I know I've always over estimated portions but I'm so full at the moment. My pants feel looser too. Don't want to weigh myself though as I am building muscle and I think it would devastate me. I measured though and I'm 38-34-43 which is pretty bad if I'm honest but in a few more weeks I'm hoping my waist and bum will be better measurements at least :)

Day 13 - Sunday feeling - far too warm.

Today I have been for a 45 minute walk and done 20 minutes on the exercise bike. I ate 2 potato cakes and beans for breakfast. 2 pieces of whole grain toast with some beet root and a yoghurt for lunch. We then went to frankie and benny's where I ate a goats cheese and caramelised onion wrap with chips. Two pieces of garlic bread and then some peanut butter sundae. Let's say it was a write off. Back to normal tomorrow.

Day 12 - weekend time

Today I have eaten 2 potato cakes, beans and a fried egg. A peanut brunch bar and 30g nuts and seeds. Then I made myself a cheese less pizza with basil, herbs and garlic. My legs are killing from the fire evacuation yesterday so I only did 10 mins on the bike today. I could have not done it but at least I persevered!

Day 11 - starting to use food as intended

Had chocolate orange thins, veggie sushi, apple and grapes. Then had tapas for tea which included houmous with pitta, mozzarella and tomato, Spanish potato tortilla, mini pizza, garlic mushrooms and garlic bread. We had a fire alarm at work so walked down 17 flights of stairs and then did 15 mins of the bike tonight. I shouldn't feel guilty about enjoying food- it was small and bite sized. Managed to continue eating slowly!! Good times.

Day 10 - to weigh or measure?

Both me and the boy now feel ill but I refuse to stop being a better eater. Today I had a square bar, a gingerbread man as felt sick, crackers and innocent Mexican chipotle chilli. Had some nuts and seeds, stirfry from last night with tofu, cherry tomatoes and some houmous. I feel sick now though. I also weighed myself today , scales said I was 12 st 11 3/4 which was exceedingly depressing. Thought I was doing well :( bad times 

Day 9 - oh I feel like death

Nine days I have been exercising on that bike and I feel like I am increasing in size not reducing my weight or size. I have felt sick today when I've eaten which has been fun. Today I ate a black cherry fruit corner and a squares bar. For dinner I had an innoncent lentil dhanbar with mixed grain crackers. I had some nuts and seeds. For tea I had a stir fry with broccoli, asparagus and beans with tofu. I had a pitta pocket with a small about hokum pus. I tried to eat golden vegetable rice but barely touched it. I'm not feeling great. This makes me feel bad. So tired. The Paul McKenna stuff is working but I'm not sure I'm enjoying food too much. Definitely tasting it but not overly enjoying. Go figure.

Day 8 - habit forming

I've exercised for 30 minutes and still need to do more - I am being lazy :( today I ate beans and potato cakes, square bar, pearl barley innocent with crackers and nuts and seeds. Hokum outs with a sandwich thin. I don't think I'm eating enough but I've definitely noticed I'm not emotionally eating. I feel hungry and I am really tasting my food. I am definitely trying to change my thought process about food. I think I've done well and it's taking me a lot longer to eat now than I did before. Portion control is the next task I guess. It's a long road but I'll get there x

Day 7 - even when I feel ill I exercised!!

I started today well, squares bar - some nuts and seeds, mixed veg, poppy seed crackers, cherry fruit corner, 2 potato cakes, pasta and homemade tomato sauce and finally a rocket lolly! I exercised for 30 minutes. I have felt very sick since yesterday! Bad times in seed :( 

Day 6 - this is becoming a habit...

Today has been very strange, for the first time in a long time I made food and didn't eat it. I am shocked. I had a square bar, 2 rice cakes, peppers, carrots and mooni with a terayaki sauce pot, 2 potato cakes and some cauliflower, broccoli and cabbage with asparagus. Not a lot, slightly strange but I felt sick and I was full. The Paul McKenna DVD was working and I definitely feel sort of different. I have been a grumpy monkey today unfortunately. I have done 20 minutes exercise (I know not enough but at least it's something). I am punishing my self watching the Hairy Biker's Dairy programme. Not a diet programme but also with a lactose intolerance I ignore, probably not a great idea. But I love it and them. Got two new recipe books - is saddening all veggie cookbooks are inherently the same - makes me sad inside :(